Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star
How I Wonder What You Are................

Right from the very first day, I read these two lines, I wonder indeed what they are. Millions and billions and probably trillions miles of away, smiling and blinking for reasons unknown to me. They are simply doing the thing, they are meant for. Moving in own orbit every moment without any failure, any fatigue, any complaint or any dissatisfaction. While moving they keep the same pace across the path. Never in hurry. Neither lathergic. No Sunday. No holiday. Yet always afresh. How were they put on their orbit? Any Hint? Any clue? No, I have not yet found any definite explanation to thisvery simple & basic question.

While moving onto their own orbit, even the come closer to some other Stars. There is a great course of attraction also between them. The Stronger and the Larger (can I call them Male in this era of Male Schovinism?) Star attracts the relatively smaller & weeker one. But, with a great sense of harmony, they continue moving on their own orbit. Unless some lethal attraction is there, they do not live their own orbit. They come closer & go far in due course of time. No loss of self identity. No slippage in scheduled task. As if, it was just an incident on the way of life. Yes, an wave of emotion was there. But, at the end, the reason for being there in this universe is not forgotten.

What a lesson !!! How I wonder, what you are. Are you not the one to teach the eternal lesson to the innermost soul? Are you not the Master, who shows the path by walking on it? Are you not giving me the light of knowledge, the very basic yet purest knowledge in my way of life? Are you not teaching me the proper handling of my best of relations with care, maintaining my self identity?

In case, I am too week to resist the attraction who would rush to the otherside and crash into him/her. I would definitely not only lose my own orbit but also be destroyed in such case. At the same time I would hurt the one, I had crush for. I would make a big hole on its entity, making a relatively permannent patch on it. Even, with that wish to get him/her permanently, I would actually lose him/her forever. I would never be able to meet again. Dont you teach me that the whole episode could be avoided only with a little more practice of "Control", the "Sanyama". This was the teaching of the ancient Rishi(s) too, as I have come to know. Were they also your disciple or follower? I wonder !!!!

What a resemblance I find between you and me or rather all of us. I am also not very sure about the process or the exact time of being put on my orbit. I am also expected to accomplish the tasks of the moments without a single question. I too carry on. But, not as selflessly as you can do it. How do you manage to do it relentlessly? What is that which does not allow you to get tired or bored? I too come close too new or existing relationships. But, either I do not have enough time or spirit to enjoy the same or I come so close that no space is left in between and ends up with a disaster.

So, I am confused whether you are "Little" indeed, as I know that you are not really. You are so "Big" that you are compared or even bigger to the centre of our fate, i mean, the Sun. Even, as I know, the Sun can be compared as a baby to a full grown man while getting compared with some of you. And again, the Earth is a baby to the Sun.  and I am even less a particle in comparison to this Earth.So, I understand, that I am simply no entity to this Sun only. So, how non-existing I am to you. But, still, it is your modesty that you appear to me even as thal small that sometimes I call you "Little". What is the level of greatness !! I simply adore you. You are wonderful. You are full of wonder.

Waves of Life......Amazing & Full of Wonder

I am amazed. I am wondered. I am blushed with the colours of Life.

Even, after crossing approximately half of my Life path, I am still getting wondered about lot of happenings, while trying to understand the dynamism of Life. Am I lucky to be amazed still or I am too foolish that I could not understand it fully yet? I am not sure. But, as the mentors suggest to be optimistic, I take it in a way that, I am blessed to be wondered.

Sometimes, I feel that the Life is a BIG & BIG ocean. And I am only another wave of this ocean - one of such uncountable numbers. Is it a pity to be so common or so normal? I don't take it in that way. I may be only another common wave of this supreme entity, but still I am One. I am unique. This wave is definitely unique, even in this large ocean. I have my own potential. I have my own movement. I have my own flow. Although, all of these so called MY things are only received from the ocean itself and they add value to that ocean only, they glorify the existance of the same ocean only,still they are MINE too. And surprisingly, while every other wave of this ocean is doing the same thing, they are unique to each other. And thus, while somebody looks into the ocean from the sea sore, they are amazed. While a photographer intends to capture the memory, he just goes on clicking his button, because at that particular point of time, he finds every wave a new one, a unique one. But, he fails to recognise which one is better than others. Hence, all of the waves are important to capture then. But, while he goes through all those images afterwards, he probably finds not much difference between all those snaps of waves. All seems to be same to each other. What a great conflict. Again, what a great unification. I am amazed. I am wondered, how to explain my realisation. To Life, all of us are equally unique, equally important yet equally same to each other. All starts their journey getting the power within from the ocean and all comes to an end within the same ocean. No wave can leave the ocean. He can neither get something, which was not there in the ocean, neither it can take anything out of the same ocean. Amazing!! isn't it?

All of these waves contain the same recipe, taken from the same ocean. All of them are equally beautiful, taken the beauty from the ocean. All of them are having the same potential, obtained from the current of the ocean . All of them are individual as well as a part of the great creation. So, all of them are virtually having all the same qualities as the ocean.

So, are the waves same as Ocean?

In a way, I can say "Yes". They are the miniature of the ocean itself. Hence, I can definitely feel that, "I am Life". In Sanskrit, we pronounce it as "Soham", which means "I am the same as He is". Somebody, interprets the "He" as the "God". I interpret in my way as "Life". Please Forgive me, if someone does not agree with me in this.

But, surprisingly I realise "No" too. The ocean contains the waves, but the vice-versa is not true. So, definitely Soham is true, i.e., I am the He. But, He is not all about me only. He is much beyond myself. life is spread much beyond my visibility, my very existance.

Confusing....conflicting.....self-contradicting. And thus, full of wonder, full of possibilities, truely unique. Let me walk few more steps down the path to relate it further..............and I am ready to wait till the end of my path.

Still with the basic Steps

Hallo Everybody......

First let me introduce this "wants to be NOTHING" blog. The meaning of "paye paye path chala" must be understood by the people, by birth who shares the same land of state with me. Even it may be understood by the people who understands my mother tongue, Bengali. But, Truly , this blog spot is not really meant for only them. So, "paye paye path chala" means "Passing the road, Step by Step".

Every Step of our life keeps its footprint not only on our life, but the whole path of this eternity. So, every step, be it right or wrong, farm or shaky, has its tremendous importance on this whole course of "LIFE". So, every step of our life can be a observed quietly, even sometime later too, and get the outcome of it. This blog spot is primarily meant for encrypting the realisation, obtained from individual step with Honesty.

Hope we will enjoy it together.

One of the strongest "first time experience" I can recall is watching the very first movie in Television in my childhood. That time the TV was really a royal tag for people in my neighbourhood at a small suburban of Kolkata. It was a Friday evening, when our landlord brought a secondhand Black & White TV set to the house. His family used to stay at the first floor of the building, while we were sharing the ground floor with his bachelor younger brother. There was a considerable mob of the people of that locality to see the TV set while it came. And we were at the proud side of gallery because we will be there in that same building where this marvellous thing will remain. It was probably the second or third TV set at that locality. People of that time used to whisper among close ones that a TV set can be bought only by those people who has some unfair income, the meaning of which was not very clear to me at that point of time.

Anyway, the next day was naturally a Saturday.Though I cannot remember the exact date , but it was probably in the year 1979 or 1980. There used to be two movies a week on TV, broad casted by the only TV channel of India , i.e. , Dooradarshan. The first one used to be on Saturday while it was followed by another in Sunday. So, we begged for a kind permission from my mother, who was really very strict about discipline, to see the Saturday movie on TV. It was approved conditionally by her. First of all, I need to complete all my study and task before afternoon, for which even I may have to sacrifice my play at ground for the day. Secondly, it can only be seen, if it is not an Adult Movie. Please do not misinterpret here. "Adult movie" does not mean a movie with "A" symbol from the desk of Sensor Board. Rather, it used to mean a movie, even with a touch of love or romance between the hero & heroine. The show time was sometime around 5 pm, if I am not wrong. So, as per the agreement, I was waiting for the movie, without even knowing the name of the movie. And the same was applicable for all other viewers, as at that time, there was even no such information of the programmes to be broadcasted by Doordarshan. Anyway, in right time the, the famous tune, probably set by Mr. Ravishankar, the famous Sitarist, came along with the revolving symbol of Doordarshan. So, the whole theatre at that room got just spell bound.No sound, no whisper and even no movement of the crowd.

After some time, the name of the movie,to be displayed that day, came on screen. And, OHHHHH, it was an so called Adult one. So, there is no permission for me to seat there. I had to quit the room, followed by my mummy too. She also sacrificed for me. What an irony! Just day before, I was prouder than than the local folks, because of having TV set at our house (though it was really not ours).....and today they can watch the movie, while I can not. I still can remember the agony within me that day.

Anyway, again I started building my hope for the Sunday movie with the same conditions. And , YES, this time I succeeded. The name of the movie was "Chander Pahar". It was a movie of struggle of two orphan boys. I really can not remember the detailed story line of that movie today, but can jolly well remember one song of that movie, which struck me like a thunder. The meaning of that song got changed to me in due course of my life. And still, sometime in my leisure, or even at some point of hard times too, I recite the first two lines of that song. "Ei Chhotto Chhotto Paye Chalte Chalte Thik Paunchhe Jabo Sei Chander Pahar/ Mathay Jahar Ramdhanu Rang Khani Dekhte Pabo......Thik Paunchhe Jabo". Meaning ? We will definitely reach that destination by our small steps, which will show us the colours of the Rainbow". Wonderful !!! It gives me the feeling of Determination, Belief, Optimism, Togetherness, Result of Hard Work and what not. It's really too inspirational. And it became the themeline of my Life.

And I am still wlking my way through life to reach those colours of Rainbow.

If you have read this till now, please put a comment on this. Love me or hate me, but please don't ignore me. Any comment from you will keep on inspiring me to encrypt my small steps to share with you.

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